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  • A Serial Killer's Daughter

  • By: Kerri Rawson
  • Narrated by: Devon O'Day
  • Length: 9 hrs and 6 mins
  • 3.7 out of 5 stars (34 ratings)

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Summary

What is it like to learn that your ordinary, loving father is a serial killer? 

In 2005, Kerri Rawson opened the door of her apartment to greet an FBI agent who shared the shocking news that her father had been arrested for murdering 10 people, including two children. That’s also when she first learned that her father was the notorious serial killer known as BTK, a name he’d given himself that described the horrific way he committed his crimes: Bind, torture, kill. As news of his capture spread, the city of Wichita celebrated the end of a 31-year nightmare. For Kerri Rawson, another was just beginning. In the weeks and years that followed, Kerri was plunged into a black hole of horror and disbelief. The same man who had been a loving father, a devoted husband, church president, Boy Scout leader, and a public servant had been using their family as a cover for his heinous crimes since before she was born. Everything she had believed about her life had been a lie.

Written with candor and extraordinary courage, A Serial Killer’s Daughter is an unflinching exploration of life with one of America’s most infamous killers and an astonishing tale of personal and spiritual transformation. For all who suffer from unhealed wounds; the crippling effects of violence; betrayal; or anger, Kerri Rawson’s story offers the hope of reclaiming sanity in the midst of madness, rebuilding a life in the shadow of death, and learning to forgive the unforgivable. 

©2019 Kerri Rawson (P)2019 Thomas Nelson

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True crime? Nope!!

Honestly the worst audiobook I’ve ever had the misfortune of listening to.
I’m not sure what I expected with this book, as a true crime ‘enthusiast’ I at least expected to learn something about the BTK case I hadn’t already known. I finished this book not having gained a single fact. About anything.
I cannot stress enoughthat this is NOT for fans of true crime, if that’s you, keep moving, this book is not for you. You will be extremely disappointed, it shouldn’t be listed in true crime, because apart from the fact the authors father is Dennis Rader, it may as well be listed in cooking for all the similaries it shares with true crime!
This book starts out like a bad entry into a teenage girls diary and the only time it diverts from that narrative is when it segways into bible verses! Neither of these areas hold any interest for me!
I have read other books by relatives/friends of serial killers and found them a fascinating insight into the struggles to accept, understand or even forgive what their loved one has done, this book? Any time that she begins to face any kind of peril she simply recites verses of the bible.
Four years ago she publicly attacked Steven King for basing one of his books on her parents marriage, she said that King was ‘exploiting my father’s 10 victims’, I should have known this book was utter rubbish when she personified hypocrisy by writing the damn thing!

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Just wanted to write an autobiography

“A Serial Killer’s Daughter”
Synopsis: although the title leads people to believe it’ll be about the heartbreak of the author’s discovery that her Dad is BTK, actually is the autobiography she wouldn’t have been famous enough to publish without using the name Dennis Rader.
This comes after recent digs at established authors and documentary makers for giving her Dad the attention he “doesn’t deserve” and profiting from the heartbreak of the victims’ families. Guess she wanted in on those profits.
I mean, none of us would turn down the chance to make some cash and she’s doing it the only way she can, but she could at least TRY and make the content match the title and she really should have asked someone to write it for her because she never was and never will be a writer. And to be honest, I think she’s said too much about how she feels about giving BTK any more notoriety to suddenly appear with her book and it’s just too late.

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Fascinating insight into a struggle for survival

I know these memories and reflections must have been exceptionally painful to write. My heart truly breaks for you. I hope that it was at least to some extent therapeutic for you to write and I pray you find some peace as you make new and better memories with your children. The book has been so illuminating into just how devastating one person's actions can be on so many lives.

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A Great Listen

I enjoyed this book. BTK was truly terrifying; hearing about his daughters life with him before and after arrest and being imprisoned was a frankly refreshing change from the books about BTK that almost glamourise being a serial killer and go into very detailed and goulish discussions about his crimes.

What I did struggle with was the religious references that are at first thinly woven into the story, but end up sounding like a TV minister who wants to ram God down your throat. Thankfully I was over half way through when it started to become irritating and I did manage to make it through to the end.

I'm glad Kerri has come to terms with her life, as much as anyone in her situation could. hearing that she has good memories before the arrest is positive. But the religious references and mutterings sounded a little OTT to be honest.

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Disappointing

I was looking forward to reading this book but it was very disappointing
Self-indulgent with so much religious nonsense. Not enough information about the crimes.
Would not recommend

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Boring beginning but ok latet

She constantly talks about god which does not allow
me to take her seriously. Other than this, ok. After boring beginning with too many unnecessary details, it gets better.

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Avoid at all costs....

You know how you hide when the Jehovah’s come knocking? Then please by all mercy don’t waste a penny on this tripe. A woman who constantly complains about PTSD, Anxiety and night terrors (not in any way associated to her father) and not to mention pointless stories about her hair in bunches with pigtails and God redeeming her victim status identity. As for the narrator it’s like something from Disney directed toward a child audience. The never ending pathetic moaning and groaning about life in general.
Her father very rarely features with little to no insight.
If you want to hear about camping trips and lots of god awful writing then go right ahead. But I guarantee you that your 3.5x reading speed option really isn’t fast enough to get you through this without wishing a sick joke might have occurred to Miss Rawson.

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Half the book was from the bible

She’s very caught up in herself when actually she lived a pretty normal life and continues to do so. Very religious and there are a lot of bible quotes which is annoying and makes you think this is her excuse for forgiving her serial killer dad. Seems like her mother had the sense to never contact him again. Weird. Voice is whiny but might be because that is how the book is written.

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For BTK enthusiasts or Christians only

If you are interested in knowing every little detail about BTK then this is worth a go, there's no particularly shocking new information but you will learn more about how BTK behaved around his family (spoiler: mostly mundane). If you're a Christian looking for a story of overcoming dark times then this will probably also be interesting to you and, to be fair, on the front of the book is printed 'My Story Of Faith, Love And Overcoming' and it does tick these boxes.
The narration is the worst aspect for me, the woman reading this gives it the feeling of some cheesy daytime TV made for housewives, something like Loose Women. She also gives Kerri a child-like voice and intonation throughout the book, and as many of the things Kerri writes about her own actions and thoughts are child-like the whole thing becomes quite irritating, hearing the story of an adult woman told as if she is forever 5 years old.
I have no problems with her writing this book morally, she should be able to tell her story and also make money from it, she's had a rare experience and is guilty of no BTK crimes, she's entitled to make profit from her work.
There's a long section near the beginning about some family trip to the Grand Canyon which I found mind-numbing from boredom and to make it worse I struggled so much to hold attention that I kept having to skip back a few minutes and try again, as I didn't want to have missed any interesting BTK information among the waffle. If I had known beforehand I'd of skipped that entire section, you don't learn much from it.
Also she often recalls memories in a way which seems to me to be highly embellished. Maybe I'm wrong but I don't think Kerri could really recall scenes in this way, knowing the sequence of her thoughts going through her mind, or how her voice sounded, or if she was shaking or whatever, there seems just too much description of her feelings and other details in a way that makes me question the authenticity of these details.
I've not quite finished it yet but am looking forward to doing so asap. Though I am glad that Kerri wrote this, I would of preferred less condescending narration and about 80% of the filler cutting, though the book does deliver on it's title.

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A unique story told but the only person qualified

Such an interesting read of a young woman's love & relationship with her father.... And the devastating effects of his crime.
BTK is a scary yet fascinating character. Kerri writes her own story & how she has navigated through the unimaginable. By all accounts one can not help but forget that the father she love is in fact BTK.
This is HER story. I saw an interview when she said "people don't realise, I don't know who BTK is... I just know my father". A brave woman with an awful legacy that some people hold the entire family in some way responsible is just ridiculous. Such a brave memoir.

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  • M. Waite
  • 30-01-19

Couldn't Get Through it

The story is about her finding Jesus with her dad's murders thrown in as asides. Also, the narrator sounds as if she is reading to children. I just couldn't finish it.

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  • 29-01-19

Extremely Boring!

As much as I feel so bad for this woman and her family, her story is a big snooze-fest. The narrator puts no dynamic in her reading. Very, very boring. If you're looking for a story about Dennis Rader/BTK... this is not the book for you. I would not recommend this to anyone.

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  • cheryl.farren
  • 29-01-19

Can’t bring myself to finish this mess

I was so excited about this book but after forcing myself to listen to a few hours I can’t go any further. There is very little talk about her father. If you want a book where she describes the color of everything she sees and uses this platform to tell her story of becoming a Christian then this is for you. The narration is awkward and reads more like a children’s book than a book about a serial killer.

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  • Jeff Scott
  • 01-02-19

Not For Everyone, But...

I found this book fascinating, but it’s not for everyone. Listeners with a generalized interest in true crime will probably be disappointed. If you can’t at least tolerate the Christian worldview (regardless of your personal beliefs) you’ll find this to be unlistenable. However, for patient listeners, I assure you there could be no weirder listening experience than listening to this book and “Inside the Mind of BTK” by John Douglas back to back. I’ve listened to this book twice now, and all I can say at this point is that I’m seriously fearful the author of this book might one day read “Inside the Mind”. It’s clear she hasn’t, for understandable reasons, but I just....I don’t know. The two books together leave me with so many questions I would be afraid to ask this author (who is, no doubt, a remarkable and courageous woman). If you can read this with a compassionate heart this is well worth your time, but to “get it” you definitely need to know the details of the BTK case from another source/criminological perspective. I’ll be listening to both several more times trying to reconcile the elements of truth both contain.

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  • 29-01-19

Children’s Book Narrator

Unlistenable! what should have been a dramatically -interesting and hearty read was ruined by a narration, only suited for the children’s fairy tale genre. what a huge letdown and what a huge shame -
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  • Kat - Audible
  • 09-01-19

Who do you turn to when the bogeyman is your own father?

When Kerri Rawson moved into her first apartment, her dad, Dennis Rader, showed her how to keep its sliding-glass door secure at night. It wasn’t until years later that she learned her father—better known as the BTK Killer—once threw a brick through a neighbor’s sliding-glass door and killed the woman inside.

Such devastating, irreconcilable memories haunt this extraordinary memoir—the most soul-searching, insightful, and compelling account by a serial killer’s loved one (and victim) I’ve ever come across. Rawson’s life was upended when Rader, a Boy Scout leader and church president, was exposed as the cruel predator who had tortured and murdered 10 people in Kansas over nearly two decades. What happened to her after that—the trauma and PTSD, the publicity, the fracturing of her family and entire world—can hardly be overstated. You’re unlikely to hear a memoir this jaw-dropping…ever. But Rawson’s nervy humor, her spiritual candor, and her capacity for compassion make her an endearing, even relatable, heroine—warmly voiced by narrator Devon O’Day.

I congratulate Rawson on writing a terrific memoir that must have taken immeasurable courage. Forget the monster; I want to know where this remarkable survivor is going next.

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  • Rachel - Audible
  • 29-01-19

Can you love a monster?

I've grown to love what memoirs can reveal about our shared humanity when the author is willing to dig deep. True crime, on the other hand, has always given me nightmares. Enter the true crime memoir. It turns out I love true crime memoirs! When super creepy, criminal acts are filtered through the very personal, introspective lens of a memoir, I can handle it. I can stop covering my eyes. I can peer a little more closely into the depths of humanity.

Kerri Rawson's astonishingly candid book about learning her beloved father had been leading a double life as a serial killer her entire life is the mother of all true crime memoirs. It touched me to my core. I'm all for the "complicated father-daughter-relationship" memoir, and it doesn't get any more complicated than "my dad is a serial killer." What I love about this book is how she fully explores the heart's confusion around knowing someone's a monster yet loving them anyway. She's so honest and pure in these moments, and her voice truly moved me.

I also really appreciated the thread of dark humor that she weaves into her story. Being able to laugh at your pain is such a hallmark of surviving crime, trauma, and abuse, and Kerri Rawson has all that in spades. Even in the darkest moments of her story, she tosses out unexpected one liners that endeared her to me even more. She's funny, and it turns out she's also a very talented writer and storyteller.

The first half of the book moves a bit slowly as she describes her family's life "pre-BTK," as in before anyone knew about her dad's double life. But this part of the story still has lots of payoff as it establishes the close relationship she had with her dad, as well as lays the foundations for her religious beliefs that would ultimately see her through her darkest hours. When she finally gets to "after-BTK" about halfway through the book, the story accelerates to lightning speeds, and I had to give myself a few little breaks only because it had gotten so intense.

Even though the cover puts this story squarely in the "true crime" camp, I hope this memoir will find a wide audience as I truly loved it and found it to be a deft and moving account of a life that most of us can hardly even begin to imagine.

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  • Amazon Customer
  • 30-01-19

Infomercial for Religion

The subtitle should be “How God is making me feel better about my really screwed up life.” I was really hoping for some thoughtfulness and insight. And obviously this woman has struggled greatly. But this book becomes nothing but a record of all the times that she pleaded with God and got nothing that was really helpful.

The narrator is not bad. But she is reading about magical and childish thinking. So while she does the best that she can, she doesn’t add anything.

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  • Sandra
  • 31-01-19

Not good

I can’t believe I sent my hard earned money on this!!! What makes the daughter of a killer interesting.......not much!!!

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  • Tommy Weaver
  • 30-01-19

Great if .......

Let me start by saying I understand that people deal with stuff in different ways. When I bought this book I expected more about Dennis Rader as a father but instead it’s like 30 percent god talk and that’s a bummer.

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