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Vow of Silence
- A Convent Home Run by Monsters and a Secret That Haunted Us for 50 Years
- Narrated by: Deirdre O'Connell
- Length: 10 hrs and 21 mins
- Unabridged Audiobook
- Categories: Relationships, Parenting & Personal Development, Parenting & Families
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Summary
A convent children's home run by monsters. A heart-breaking family secret that haunted us for 50 years.
Suzanne suffered five heart attacks and made it through open heart surgery. But even that pales in comparison to the horrors she faced as a young girl.
Her childhood became the ‘stuff of nightmares’ after her father passed away and her mother, unable to get a job in Ireland, had to seek work in London. So ‘Mammy’ was forced into the heart-breaking decision to put Suzanne and her five siblings into church-run orphanages in Dublin while she worked away. It was just meant to be temporary.
Her life soon became a daily struggle to avoid beatings with canes and rosary beads. Suzanne and the other children worked from dawn until midnight, living on disgusting scraps of food, while the nuns dined on fresh fruit, meat and cakes that the ‘orphans’ had cooked for them. Suzanne tried her best to shield her younger sisters from the terror of these hateful ‘women of God’. But it was only the beginning of their troubles....
Eventually, their mother returned from London after four years with enough money to take her children out, and the family was reunited. However, too scared to speak out, the children vowed to take the horrors they had experienced at the orphanages to their graves.
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- stella johnson
- 26-07-22
my thoughts definatly a five star story
compelling sad couldnt stop listening to it hard to believe of the evil there is
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- sabrina
- 08-06-22
great true story
loved it and has inspired me and im also looking to tell my Da's story
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- Judy
- 12-06-22
The Ugly Face of Catholicism
This is a devastating tale of criminal malfeasance carried out against the most vulnerable in our society by cowards who had authority over the lives of helpless children.
It is said that the pope collapsed in tears when he read the third secret of Fatima early in the twentieth century. Catholics around the world feared that it contained ominous warnings of an impending World War III. I have grown more convinced over the years that this still-unrevealed secret foretells the crumbling of the Catholic Church from within, a conviction bolstered by Suzanne Walsh's revelations of the nasty nuns who ran Ireland's orphanages.
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- Denise
- 26-02-22
Don’t turn against God for the failures of man.
Survivors can thrive after tragedy.
I believe there are special blessings for children who survived such cruelty at the hands of those who undoubtedly suffered the same. The lucky ones are those who hopefully were also surrounded by good, decent, loving people.
Nobody ever said life would be easy. It’s also what you make it.