“When you read this book you will understand how trauma, like snow drifts, builds up layer by thin layer. The highlight is the harrowing description of what teenage life can descend into, when, for whatever reasons, you has developed no boundaries. Eventually unsavoury characters infiltrate your life and you have no agency to keep them out. Since you have no control you become an alcoholic to deal with the tragedy of your life. Jette Knox takes you step by step through bullying, cruelty, and rape. She never rings a false note on this terrifying journey from girlhood to adulthood.”—Catherine Gildiner, bestselling author of Good Morning, Monster

“Caught in the maelstrom of a past catastrophe, the anxious mind can crumble. And re-crumble. For Amanda Jetté Knox negative thinking was an invitation back to the lonely child who was bullied and sexually abused. From that young girl who found solace in drugs and alcohol, to the adult who was attacked by vicious trolls for sharing her story of a transgendered family, Knox shows us how a triumphant life is accessible despite enormous hurdles. Not only is PTSD navigable but with acceptance, vulnerability, and love, stored memories have the power to bring ultimate freedom.”—Susan Doherty, award-winning author of The Ghost Garden

“Trauma and shame and the PTSD that come with them require frank and often uncomfortable discussions in order to get to the germ of the issues and move on in a healthy manner. Amanda Jetté Knox has had more of her share of all of it, and her journey back to sound mind, body, and relationships is a combination of harrowing and rewarding, inspiring and cautionary, and her brutally honest self-awareness is alternately welcome and witty. In the end, her life experiences and what she has gleaned from them will help anyone at any level of trauma and shame find their way back.”—David Pevsner, author of Damn Shame