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  • By: Vivek Shraya
  • Narrated by: Vivek Shraya
  • Length: 1 hr and 26 mins
  • 4.4 out of 5 stars (32 ratings)

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I'm Afraid of Men

By: Vivek Shraya
Narrated by: Vivek Shraya
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Summary

Named a Best Book by: The Globe and Mail, Indigo, Out Magazine, Audible, CBC, Apple, Quill & Quire, Kirkus Reviews, Brooklyn Public Library, Writers’ Trust of Canada, Autostraddle, Bitch, and BookRiot.  

Finalist for the 2019 Lambda Literary Award, transgender nonfiction

Nominated for the 2019 Forest of Reading Evergreen Award

Winner of the 2018 Alcuin Society Awards for Excellence in Book Design - prose nonfiction 

"Cultural rocket fuel." (Vanity Fair

"Emotional and painful but also layered with humour, I'm Afraid of Men will widen your lens on gender and challenge you to do better. This challenge is a necessary one - one we must all take up. It is a gift to dive into Vivek's heart and mind." (Rupi Kaur, best-selling author of The Sun and Her Flowers and Milk and Honey

A trans artist explores how masculinity was imposed on her as a boy and continues to haunt her as a girl - and how we might reimagine gender for the 21st century.

Vivek Shraya has reason to be afraid. Throughout her life she's endured acts of cruelty and aggression for being too feminine as a boy and not feminine enough as a girl. In order to survive childhood, she had to learn to convincingly perform masculinity. As an adult, she makes daily compromises to steel herself against everything from verbal attacks to heartbreak. 

Now, with raw honesty, Shraya delivers an important record of the cumulative damage caused by misogyny, homophobia, and transphobia, releasing trauma from a body that has always refused to assimilate. I'm Afraid of Men is a journey from camouflage to a riot of colour and a blueprint for how we might cherish all that makes us different and conquer all that makes us afraid.

©2018 Vivek Shraya (P)2018 Penguin Random House Canada
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Critic reviews

“Vivek Shraya transforms her long-festering fears of men into cultural rocket fuel.... Shraya’s dispatches from the frontlines of life as a queer, trans woman of color are frequently illuminating, painfully honest, and, in spite of everything, hopeful.” (Vanity Fair)

“Shraya crafts each of her memories in prose made poetic with touches of metaphor. She writes with honesty and vulnerability, all the while asking challenging and personal questions that inspire deeper reflection. This crucial addition to shelves offers the vital and often ignored perspective of a trans woman of color. A book to carry with you.” (Kirkus Reviews, starred review) 

“Anyone who has ever looked behind them when walking at night, avoided eye contact with strangers or wiped off a lipstick for being too bold - so, all of us - should read this mini-manifesto.” (Elle Canada

“Viscerally powerful...creating tectonic fissures into antiquated beliefs around gender identity.” (Toronto Star)

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This is absolutely incredible

This is such a beautiful and eye opening book. This is an essential read for everyone. I think this is honestly perfect and I don’t have any criticism (not something i can say often). I’m about to buy a physical copy to share with my family.

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compelling

A really good read that analysises, through personal experience the lens we live under

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  • 22-09-18

Not good.

I didn’t like anything about this book. I want my money back. Zero stars. Bad.

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A must-read for everyone!

Shraya manages to explain so many complex issues so succinctly. Don't let the length of this book fool you, it's quite in depth but put in a way that anyone can understand. It's a fantastic piece of trans-inclusive feminist literature everyone should read.

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  • Lesley
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Raw truth

the author/narrator had such a beautiful voice and an incredible way of using story telling as teaching.

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  • Jolene Harper
  • 20-02-19

Fantastic

An amazing view of the effects our gender roles play in trauma. And a glimpse at a potential brighter future.