Episodes

  • Fat and Trans

    Fat and Trans
    Jan 16 2022

    I update, I chat, I rant-- I get into my experiences being both fat and trans. There are an incredible amount of parallels between being fat and being trans, so I just kind of speak my mind. I also read a few poems later in the episode.

    How tf do you make music for this...? I considered making a whole tuba track for it but it would've been entirely too much improvising for an hour and twenty minutes on tuba. Maybe some other time. That will be for live shows IMO.

    Poems referenced:

    https://madaboutit.blog/dumbo/

    https://madaboutit.blog/fatphobia-climate-carbon/

    https://madaboutit.blog/too-fat-not-fat-enough/

    https://madaboutit.blog/fear-of-hips/

    https://madaboutit.blog/queer-culture-as-a-forgiveness-pass/

    https://madaboutit.blog/fat-shaming-fetish-motivation-to-diet/

    https://madaboutit.blog/echo-chamberlings-trans-redditors-we-speak-for-they-them/

    https://madaboutit.blog/observations-of-popular-thought-on-reddit-fatphobia-is-common-average-and-everywhere/

    https://madaboutit.blog/nicokado-avocado-and-his-audience-agree-on-one-thing-internalized-fatphobia-self-proclaimed-fat-meme/

    https://madaboutit.blog/at-the-intersection-of-fat-and-trans-is-a-rock-and-a-hard-place/

    https://madaboutit.blog/people-are-super-triggered-by-body-positivity-neutrality/

    https://madaboutit.blog/not-a-visible-achievement/

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    1 hr and 18 mins
  • Life Check

    Life Check
    Sep 27 2021

    Life check.

    Am alive-- am thriving--

    Not sure why, but that's enough to send

    This guy into another spiral.

    More episodes will follow-- I have a lot I need to catch up on

    Loads of completed fully planned episodes

    I've been too obsessive over to let go of.
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    24 mins
  • Non-binary Transsexual/Ideological Hematoma

    Non-binary Transsexual/Ideological Hematoma
    May 20 2021

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    Just ranting honestly

    I have other episodes planned, I announce them

    I don't have anything scripted for this episode it's just

    Completely off the handle.

    I am sorry I haven't been making as many episodes, I've been

    More than a bit preoccupied, so keep that in mind

    If you want to cancel me-- it's okay--

    I have plans anyway.

    https://www.netflix.com/title/80168079

    That's the documentary on the sochi olympics that mentions testosterone therapy

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    41 mins
  • Trans Bills, Trans Kids, and the Consequences

    Trans Bills, Trans Kids, and the Consequences
    Apr 10 2021

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    School House Mock? Too much? Not enough?

    These bills are killing trans kids and no one seems to think about it that way.

    Protect the children? Whose children? Where? What? When? Why? How?

    How about let's stop selling and killing kids at the border first.

    Republicans seem to focus on clickbait topics and turn them into policy, which is what they're always blaming us for. Meanwhile back at the ranch, real trans people are really suffering.

    Trust trans kids. Believe trans kids. Stop doubting, stop questioning, stop harassing trans youth.

    We can't protect them from everything, but these bills need to go. If any of this shit sticks on the fan, it will blow into other areas. The transphobia will snowball.
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    24 mins
  • If Ru Paul Won't Cancel Utica-- then Cancel Ru Paul!

    If Ru Paul Won't Cancel Utica-- then Cancel Ru Paul!
    Mar 31 2021
    https://www.patreon.com/madaboutitpatreon Support MAI on patreon! Talk about a friendly goodbye. "Mean"? Does that really cut it? Does "mean" hold up against all that ignorance? I've about had it with Ru Paul and I think it's time the empire started to collapse on itself. Ru Paul's ego is old, fat and bloated--if you don't mind me saying so. Fat. A word for excess adipose tissue. Something Ru Paul would have, if he didn't look like he had weekly plastic surgery appointments to suck the fat out of every crevice of his body. He would take that as a compliment, certainly! Gottmik as the first trans contestant? Might as well have a headline that says "Go fuck yourself, trans history!" Anyway here's all my notes utica roast outline Intro hello, I dunno if I'm becky anymore But I'm sure as hell still mad about it. Utica's roast was one of the more revealing parts of the show. Exposed underlying sentiments long encouraged in the show Season 2 is a great example of virulent fatphobia scripted by Ru Paul himself into the show --Raven benefits from her real-time roast of mystique during the food challenge. Her jokes about mystique in the interview clips are at least as mean as Utica's roast material. Except-- no roast in sight. Just another contestant on the show. --they made them eat brains and all sorts of weird stuff that the other queens found disgusting, so that when mystique won first by a large margin (because it was a speed-eating competition!!!) She was double standard punished for both finishing first and finishing first while eating what the other queens treated as such a disgusting array of foods. Mystique was both setup to win, and setup to be shamed for winning. Season 9 Sasha Velour, Valentina and Eureka have a confrontation --Eureka is edited as the loud angry fat person bullying the thin people with eating disorders --Eureka's own experience with eating disorders is completely edited out. --There is a clip where Sasha begins to apologize to Eureka and her word is clipped mid-sound. Sounds edited, highly suspicious. Perhaps Sasha velour was acknowledging Eureka's truth, and the show edited it out? --Eureka recieves the villain edit in season 9 and 10 both. When she talks about her serious injury, and the struggles involved in healing from it-- she is treated as someone grasping at straws for sympathy as some sort of advantage in the competition. This is pretty common in the show, but generally pits real vulnerability as not just weakness, but manipulative intent. --At least three contestants come forth talking about their issues with eating disoders, and none of the fat contestants are ever interviewed about their issues with body image and food. I have a hard time believing Eureka didn't talk about eating disorders. Fast forward through Nina West, who is labeled as a plus sized without being plus sized. She is a broad, full sized adult man who doesn't try to become an unhealthy size or weight. She is treated as fat, and has self-labeled as such. She also happens to play devil's advocate whenever possible, "diffusing the situation", "putting out fires" aka BEING A HUGE WET BLANKET. tbh after this recent footage fuck Nina West. Silky Nutmeg Ganache also recieved a vicious villain edit in the show. I believe she is a huge diva in real life, but I also fail to understand how this is a disadvantage on the show. In all previous seasons-- the biggest diva wins. Unless she is quite literally the biggest, largest diva. Kim Chi was robbed. Multiple times. Her song "fat femme and asian" not only puts her in a box, but fails to make it a box anyone would want to open. For a queen with such tremendous artistic talent and emotional depth, I feel that "fat femme and asian" is more than a bit reductive. It definitely hasn't aged well, given America's epidemic of asian violence. Now we arrive to Utica. I'm sure we missed some other plus girls on the show, but I just wanted to make this about Utica TBH. I would love to have a whole separate episode about fatphobia in all the seasons of ru paul, but I needed to give you some history in case you weren't aware or hadn't seen the later seasons. Utica starts the episode by pandering for compliments about her lipsync. She clearly intends for people to congratulate her for sending Tina Burner home, and for them to say her lipsync was amazing. It wasn't, so they didn't. She then writes her jokes, which apparently are so bad that Rose even said something in her cutaway interview that she thought they were insensitive at best. She goes to rehearsal, she starts delivering her material Her first joke is good, she tells her lion king joke. It flops, Michelle critiques-- the way she would with any other queen. Utica responds by fat shaming her, ignoring and insulting her critique. She then tells the Nina West "whale" joke. Doesn't even make a Dory reference (comedy crime no.1) Loni Love laughs, because the jokes was horribly fatphobic. Utica laughs at the whale laughing at ...
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    42 mins
  • Intersectionality

    Intersectionality
    Feb 4 2021

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    Black history month is here, so let's talk some intersectionality.

    Feminist-- Why I identify as one Feminism is the root of most progress Misogyny is a driving force behind discrimination of women and LGBTQAI folks Who came up with intersectional feminism? Kimberlé Crenshaw, a black American law professor coined the term in 1989. She's still active and working as a lawyer and civil rights advocate.

    Why do we still have problems if this has been around since then...? Exactly, my friend. Exactly.

    Nothing is perfect. Certainly not social movements, and definitely not this fucking podcast. I dig into some of the problems with how people use intersectionality, as well as how our government ignores it. White feminism does little to help POC thrive.

    Ally is a verb, folks. Do it-- don't identify as a verb. You can't identify as an ally, same way you can't identify as a fuck.

    Although it is tempting...
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    41 mins
  • Becky Lives !!!

    Becky Lives !!!
    Jan 7 2021

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    Trans 2020 recap

    Becky is sick

    Becky is full of it

    Becky finally got his name changed

    Becky had a health scare

    Becky learned th’ software

    Also I swear to god I met some real life TERF’s

    Elliot Page is here!!!

    JK Rowling is a professional TERF

    Eddie Izzard is making her own rules

    I can’t help but cheer

    TERF head cannon of anxiety and fear

    I can’t live there any more

    not worth it

    I can’t even visit

    Christine and the Queens is becoming famous

    MUNA isn’t…?

    What’sherface is disappearing and unqueering herself

    Literally all the popstars

    *insert rant about queer pop here

    All the things you said all the things you said running through my head

    MOVING ON

    Pandemic gone done shut the whole earth down

    I rebooted, so has everyone else

    Society is resilient, kinda like this mutating virus

    Worst year ever did we really need to

    Celebrate it? I mean come on folks I didn’t want to have

    Any sort of new years edition

    This episode is about plans for

    2021

    Because we have to move on

    Sorry I forgot about the playlists

    I’ve been working a ton, I can’t listen to music when I work—

    I don’t get anything done.

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    51 mins
  • Non-Binary Blues

    Non-Binary Blues
    Sep 9 2020

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    I've beyond had it.

    If I hear one more person say they want to

    "Look more Non-binary"

    I'm gonna flip my lid

    I've already flipped my lid ten times just this week--

    There is tightness in my chest.

    AIN'T NOBODY LOOK MORE OR LESS NON-BINARY THAN ANYBODY ELSE

    HOW TF YOU SUPPOSED TO LOOK NB

    WHY ARE YOU PUTTING SO MUCH PRESSURE ON EVERYBODY

    Also some of us don't want to conform

    To your ideas of gender, so

    What happens to us and them!?!?

    What about looking like a man makes you

    Less non-binary than looking like a woman?

    Vice versa?!?!?

    I've been under the impression this whole time, that we are supposed to be

    Fighting gender norms--Not gatekeeping them.
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    55 mins