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  • Lucid

  • A Memoir of an Extreme Decade in an Extreme Generation
  • By: Lucy Holden
  • Narrated by: Lucy Holden
  • Length: 8 hrs and 55 mins
  • 4.5 out of 5 stars (22 ratings)

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Lucid

By: Lucy Holden
Narrated by: Lucy Holden
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Summary

'In Bath, I lay in a field with headphones on, drunk, and staring at an empty blue sky that reflected nothing of the chaos in the world. Below the fields flashed the seaweed-green of a London train, and I imagined my former life at the end of it but felt more like it had been tied to the tracks and careered over at 100 mph.'

After a wild decade of hedonistic city life that veered violently into trauma, Lucy Holden was thrown back down the ladder to her parents’ house in a pandemic that paused the parties and forced her to ask herself how she’d become who she’d become. Grown-up, broken-down, completely lost, then locked in - Lucy realises she can’t make it up as she goes along forever and instead has to confront the darkness she’s been running from her entire adult life. 

In this raw, hilarious, sometimes filthy, often emotional memoir about a young woman asking herself how long she has until her act cracks completely, the mental health of a fast-paced world that never sits still is called into question. With charm and wit, Lucid addresses what it means to be young in today’s society - and where we can go from here.  

©2022 Lucy Holden (P)2022 Simon & Schuster, UK
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Beautiful, smart, moving

Absolutely loved this. So powerful! I laughed and cried all the way through. Gorgeous voice and pace as well. Highly recommend

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A cathartic experience for a fellow millennial

Finishing this book I feel indebted to Lucy for her deep vulnerability and honesty about a decade of experiences that so closely reflect my own. The despairing rat rate and simultaneously seductive hedonism; the shame and self blame of coming to terms with sexual assault and domestic violence and how you only realise later how much that trauma has shaped your life and relationships; and the healing power of therapy, nature and a slower pace of life - a glorious silver lining of the bleakness of the pandemic. I cried, laughed and saw a lot of myself in this truly genuine memoir, and it felt like a long, deep conversation over a pint with a pal. I know Lucid will stay with me for a long time.

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Young Woman's Life So Far

I'm almost twice the author's age so I was unsure about this but I think it's great.

It is very well written and read quite quickly, which added to my enjoyment for some reason. Made me feel like I was listening to an interesting friend in the pub.

So much of what young women tend to go through, good and bad, is the same as in my day but a lot of stuff is much more difficult I think.

Well worth a listen.

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Not an average millennial

This is a child of Sex and the City, Bridget Jones's diary and fleabag. It is not, as Caitlin Moran seems to think, about an average millennial or what normal is for the "young" in today's society. The author is not normal or representative, apart from a very small set of educated young professional media types in London - which is why the book is entertaining. However, it is a funny and insightful tale of the paradox of having all you wanted as a young person but finding it ultimately unable to fulfil a deeper need for healing.

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Utterly relatable and brilliant.

I’m 45 and this book was a completely relatable, beautifully written and read. And while listening I thought back through my own 15 years working in London, on the treadmill, with all of the madness and different relationships. It is a hugely validating book. Thank you for writing this book.

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Wow

Can’t decide what I like more, the writing, or the narrators lovey voice. Sequel when?

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Obviously Not For Me

This obviously wasn't a book for me, the author seemed unlikeable and has obviously had a life where she was told she was interesting and had a story to tell - she isn't and she doesn't.

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